This prayer/meditation/thing came to me one morning early in the COVID-19 pandemic, when I woke early Sunday morning feeling hopeless as the night leached into day. I did this first as a personal meditation, then immediately wrote it and led my congregation through it in Zoom worship.
Imagine that your belovedness is located deep inside of you. I’m talking about that core of who you are as someone made in the image of a God who loves you, that part of you that has experienced love and worth or that longs to feel that love. It’s there, whether you are familiar with it or not. Take a moment to locate it in your body.
For me, it's a spot about the size of a walnut, right behind my sternum. Maybe it's larger or smaller for you, maybe it's lower in your gut, maybe it's higher in your heart, maybe it's somewhere else.
Wherever the core of your belovedness is, reach down to it and give it a little nudge, waking it up. You can put your hand on your body if you like.
Now that you’ve warmed the spot up, imagine the divine reaching out to you and touching you in the core of your belovedness. Imagine the divine giving it a little boop.
Feel the warmth of that boop flow through your whole body.
Dwell here for a moment, knowing yourself beloved; then gather together energy from this center and come back up.
You can boop your belovedness anytime you like. Maybe you can hang out there, in that place where you know you are loved. Maybe all you get is a tiny spark, a little boop as you touch it lightly.
Know that it is all good. It is a rare person who can operate out of this place, who can live at all times out of the knowledge of God's love. But we can always give ourselves a little boop to remind us.
Be gentle with yourself, as God's love is gentle with you.
This work by Alison Casella Brookins is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License.